Feeling A Little Nervous

You are probably wondering why today's post is not 'A Random Thing Or Two-sday' and I kind of am too, but there are more important matters at hand.

In approximately 45 minutes, I go in for my thyroid ultrasound, and I can't shake this funky feeling of anxiety. Weird, uncomfortable butterflies, loss of appetite, and racing heart kind of anxiety. 

I have briefly mentioned before, back when I was pregnant with Luke, that I have hypothyroidism. My thyroid basically sucks at secreting the correct amount of thyroid hormone, which can cause a huge list of problems and issues. About 3 months ago, my doctor ran some testing and concluded that I have Hashimoto's thyroiditis, which is an auto-immune disease where antibodies attack the thyroid. The cause is not well known as to why this happens, but I will be on thyroid medication for the rest of my life.

After visiting the endocrinologist 2 weeks ago, she felt some nodules on my thyroid. As she discovered this, she calmly mentioned in a "not to scare you" voice that women with Hashimoto's thyroiditis are at a slightly higher risk for developing thyroid cancer. She requested that I receive an ultrasound of my thyroid to see if the nodules could possibly look tumorous. 

Sure, this may not be a huge deal, and sometimes I feel like sissy for getting distressed about it, but I just recently found out my aunt had to undergo chemo and radiation for a tumor she has on her thyroid when she was young. Even more, the cancer is back and she is now going through surgery once again.

The endocrinologist mentioned about taking a biopsy if the ultrasound shows the nodules are growing. I don't know about you, but those words scare me. So many family members of mine have battled with cancer in one form or another, so that word makes me sick to my stomach.

Blegh.

Sorry for getting heavy and all hypochondriac on you today, but sometimes I just feel a need to write out my worries and frustrations. 

Pray that all goes well!